I’m more than a little disappointed in myself that I don’t feel I have anything to write a blog about.   It’s been like that for two weeks now and I’m seriously wondering whether I have anything to say.   Paradoxically, I know that this isn’t true because I always have something to say!

So, I can only put it down to my mind being elsewhere lately.   Or maybe I have so much that I want to say that I’m suffering from a bad case of not-knowing-what-to-write-about-first.

Rather than waffle on about something that may well prove to be boring or inconsequential I think I’ll just tell you about something that I’ve added to my morning routine; I’ve started meditating again; seriously and enthusiastically this time.

“That’s no great shakes”   I hear you say.            “Loads of people meditate”   you add.  

And you’re quite right, they do and it’s no big deal that I’ve rejoined the band; but then again, meditation IS a big deal.  A very big and worthwhile deal.

My interest was piqued again when I picked up “The Secrets of Meditation” by davidji; a man whose voice you could drown in and who understands just how difficult meditation is in a world where there is so much needless pressure to perform meaningless tasks or to live up to unreasonable heights of attainment in futile corporateness.

Having meditated this morning for 15 minutes and then again for a 30-minute session later in the day (with my cat providing the soothing backdrop of her purring) I’ve become aware of a couple of failings of mine that I would really like to address.   I’ve known about them for a while but today they seem more important to overcome and I have a knowing that I can do so with loving-kindness.   And that’s the big deal; the acknowledgement of these failings of mine tempered by the knowledge that I can do something about them now and not have to beat myself up about having them in the first place or berate myself that it’s taken me so long to recognise them.

Let’s see if I can do this – all I need is the faith in myself and to trust.    Oh! is that all?

xx ♥ xx

N.B.   For more information about davidji’s book please visit his page:-


I’ve just picked up this book – “Time Warped” by Celia Hammond.  It’ll be my bedtime reading for the next few weeks.
Time Warped by Celia Hammond

I’m always intrigued by time:

  • Why there doesn’t seem to be enough time when you’ve so much to do.
  • Why time hangs so heavy when you’re feeling sad or lonely or depressed.
  • Why it slips out of your hands when you get up early in order to get certain things done before you head off for that appointment.
  • Why we can’t time travel.
  • Why we shouldn’t time travel …..
  • …. and why perhaps we should.

And, of course, all the things Ms Hammond mentions on the back of her book:-

  • “Why does time slow down if we think we’re about to die?”
  • “Why does life speed up as we get older?”
  • “Why does the clock in your head sometimes move at a different speed from the one on the wall?”

So, in this, my first proper post, I’m going to start to see where my thoughts go, how they relate to my own experiences and how they might affect my future.

After so many false starts with this blog, I’ve finally got it together and produced something I’m proud of and will commit to.

Maybe it just wasn’t the right time before today!